I thought about updating everyday for three weeks but wanted to see how the cliff hanger ended first. After the peak of good news from Brad’s scan on 11/28 we followed that up with “flunking” the blood test on 12/12 due to low White Blood Cell counts. Brad had a rough ride during #5 and ended up with a sinus infection. Apparently it is true that antibiotics kill the good stuff and the bad stuff. I had always heard that but we saw it in action. We tried on the 12th and the 19th and his count was even lower the second week. We didn’t let the news put a bummer on our holiday celebrations and Brad won’t miss an event so we just kept going. They told us to come back on Christmas Eve and we’d try again. There are definite pluses to missing a chemo treatment since he didn’t have to deal with the side effects and had a decent amount of energy. BUT that was a catch 22 since he felt good enough to be my Christmas Elf running errands all over town he was also with lots of germs. After getting kicked out of our second try I started making him Vitamin C drinks with pineapple coconut EmergenC packets, pineapple and orange juice. I’m not sure if that had anything to do with his rebound but I told him I’d take credit.
The morning of Christmas Eve with lots still to do we went to the clinic with not an ounce of hope that he would get the treatment. It was quiet, only a few people were there and from neighboring conversations it sounded like many of those patients were the ones who had gotten booted out in the previous days and weeks. Brad commented that all the “derilics” were in it together. I stayed busy until it was time for them to tell us whether he was staying for treatment and my mood was declining by the minute. Our very nice nurse came walking towards me with the report in her hand and gave me a thumbs up so I was instantly relieved and got to watch him get the good news. We were totally shocked and immediately started texting friends and family to let them know he made the cut. His levels had tripled in five days! Everyone celebrated with us and I think Christmas Eve and Day were spent much happier for all who are rooting for Brad. His fatigue reminds us of his reality but we are thankful for it at the same time. Cancer is so weird. It makes you thankful for the craziest things.
We had a wonderful Christmas week spent with family out and about a little bit, celebrating our friend’s 50th birthday, enjoying time with our teams and truly feeling the holiday spirit. I used to hate Christmas…it was hard on me as a kid so it took a long time to peel that damper off and remember to make my own new way. This year truly felt like the holidays were intentional and the presents were second to the time spent with each other. For anyone who contributed to group gifts given to us I can’t fully express my appreciation but please know you all are life savers! Our church brought loads of presents for the kids and seeing their faces as they opened each one was pure magic. We’ve been given so many gift cards for restaurants, grocery stores, QuikTrip and Visa cards. All of this has been amazing and definitely eased the pressure on me to find ways to make this all work. Friends handed us cards or venmo’d money to help out and while I feel weird accepting the gifts I know it helps them feel like they are helping. I know that feeling of helplessness when a friend is having a hard time so I’ve learned to accept help with a grateful heart.
So now that the inlaws have gone back home I hope to be productive, get organized and be ready to roll in 2019. I have so much hope for a great year no matter what is in store for us. The gift cancer gives you is the blessing of being present and appreciating very normal days. We say sorry quicker, try to be happy as we can and I’ve been really trying to stay tuned in to how the kids are doing. That is the hardest part. Please pray for Brad to stay healthy enough for chemo and for his hope, faith and sunny attitude to remain intact. This is a long road and we feel weary many days but are reminded we have to keep going! I plan to be more organized and focused so I can keep my stress level in check. Cheers to a wonderful New Year!